Hi
Well I was suppose to start writing yesterday but somehow I didn't coz of office.Today too I am in my office at Hewitt Associates,on the 6th floor.The weather is awesome outside,just perfect to be with some one you actually want to be with.
I have been planning to write for quite some time now to jot down the sudden rush of emotions that come through.
Anyways so I was listening to his song yesterday "please don't leave me" by PINK which made me reaslise that Tan(dats what ppl call me as) Common man! you arent that bad that you can make things right.I mean ya I would take some time to get evrything back on track but whats life then?without tons and tons of hurdles.So ya right now I am no longer in talking terms with any of my "so called" friends here in gurgaon,Agam(we were in college together,one of my closest friend)has gone to Dubai for her internship,Shifu(again one of my closest college friend)is back home and can't come visit coz aunti is not keeping well and Avinash(my only bestest friend and boyfriend)broke up with me 3 weeks back which I still dont believe is true.Exactly one month back it was my birthday everything was fine ,we were happy and then bham!!evrything feels so empty,like a hole in my heart which cannot be healed..not very soon that I am very sure of.He has been handling this all really well,he is already over me I think coz he is all happy (can see from his FB updates,thats my only source of information) and now I dread maybe he has fallen for somebody else and i pray that its not true coz yesterday he has mentioned something of this sort that he is in a very good mood today and had put up those lovey dovey videos .:'(.He had told me that now he will never get into a relationship again nor will he trust anybody,don't know what this all is.Its like vicious circle and I am the centre of all the problems.Trust me when I say that,I am actually in some deep shit.Everyday when I get up I promise myself that I will be happy today,I wont cry,I wont think negative cz my heart still says I and Avinash will be back again cz we are meant to be together despite of the fact that my head tells me no tan he is not coming back coz he has moved on and he has some great self control wherein there are minimal chances that I am going to be happy again.I get so agitated and desperate at times that i search for stupid things online through which i can get him back or can remove the root cause to the whole problem,thatis ME.
I know nobody is going to read this shitty life story of mine but yeah i will atleast be relieved that I took evrything out of my system and wrote it somewhere.The worst part is I am one person who cannot stay alone,I am always surrounded by people cz I just love being in company of them,but yeah Avinash is one person who completes me through and through.He always gives me this sense of security which only family can.
For today i think i will stop at this,but before that do listen to the song i mentioned,if somebody evr reads it.I know everyone in this world has had heartbreaks or has loved some one very truly.
P.S-As i start off my story you will get to know all the characters,friends,family,acqauintances everybody,coz i am one chatter box who does not stop very easily.:-)
I hope this is a starting of something good for me,I know i can be self centred but ya i want to be happy again.
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